I hold no doctorates or muse over credentials of grandeur, but I do stake claim to the ownership of my body and the state of it's well-being.
However, in our current medical landscape even the slightest presentation of an educated response to a health crisis is seen as inappropriate or even dangerous, a complete affront to the expertise of the lofty and the few.
This "ego anger" as I often call it seems to stem less from a professional stance of patient protection and more from a fear of the "sheep" breaking from the herd and defying the status quo.
I've been called a know-it-all, an over-concerned citizen and even a hypochondriac and out of all these insults and undignified attempts at character assassination not an ounce of progress has been made nor a shining of compassion shown, the least of which is owed to me, as with any other individual. I don't remember receiving the memo that humanhood is now a privilege.
In the end the only result I have been left with is a continued distrust for those in the medical field. The outcome of living in a constant space of unknowing, of whether I am on "the list", the pariah with a hidden agenda or still considered "worth saving". The what-ifs and whys, the where-oh-where on the listening board will I be this time around, somewhere caught between patients 1 and 9 or tossed to the side once again?
Being oft-ignored and the constant bearer of a "suspicious" diagnosis can leave dear old Patient X feeling tired after a hard day's work of being vilified and denied. So battle on, repelling the bullets of injustice and remain steadfast in myself.
I refuse to fall between the cracks and will fight to prevent anyone else from having to brave that chasm as well.
May we continue to fill the empty hollow of ignorance and lies with the brevity of truth and always hold the line.
And to our critics, remember you could just as easily be here. Don't wait until it's someone you love on the other side of the inquisitor's table to have a change of heart. Make a difference now!
Happiness, Hope and Healing to you all.